Tiff 's Poems

1999

**I am me**

I am me

I wonder why

I hear things that no one hears,

I see things that no one sees

I want to be normal like everyone else

I am me.

I imagine death

I feel alone

I touch my soul

I worry that I will be forgotten

I cry

I am me.

I understand that everyone dies that's why...

I say goodbye; alone; crying;

I die...

1999

**I said no!**

No is no and that is that

I ain't ganna fuck you or suck you

Or anything like that.

If you don't like that tough shit,

I ain't like that

But if that's what you want then your cut.

And no is no and that is that.

2000

**What if?**

What if we never took the time to find out what was on are minds?

What if we never learned to listen to our hearts?

Where would life be if we never listened to that little voice that little voice that

always said What if?

2000

**The Fates**

What if I never took the time to find out what was on your mind?

Then we would have never made the mistake and messed with fate.

What if my heart never heals?

Could the fates be so cruel?

Or is this my punishment for touching you?

My punishment I'll bear for it's the price I must pay for showing you my love and

devotion.

But I ask you this?

How could the fates be so cruel?

For all I did was love you.

2000

**Reality**

Reality I must face I understand this.

But I love you so much it can not end like this.

I'll never be over cause I'll always love you.

Besides what is reality?

And can you face it too?

2000

You said you loved me and I was so happy I could fly.

You said you hated me and I was so sad I thought surely I'd die.

My emotions are crumpling, my insides are dead, I can't go threw this no longer so

make up your head.

I'll love you always I'll be there to the end but betray me and your life will end.

2000

What do I have to do to get you into my arms?

I'll change.

I'll lead.

I'll even follow.

I'll do what ever it takes to get you back.

All I want is you and only you.

With out you I cry and I seem to die.

But with you I can fly.

I miss you.

I love you and I want you back.

2000

When a man loves a women he should treat her right.

All you did was wine me, dine me, and sixty- nine me.

You said you loved me, but you took advantage, so now I'll take your life.

2000

**Broken**

My heart is broken

My tears are gone

I am dieing

All since the day you were gone.

I will be forgotten for I am alone.

No one to miss me

For I had no one who kissed

Since you went away.

I lay here now dieing hopeing that you'll die too.

For only in death can we truly be happy together. Forever.

2000

I love you more with every breath that I take.

I love you so much my heart will never break?

Come back to me baby I love you so.

Come back to me now so my heart will never let go.

2000

When you love someone your suppose to treat them right. But baby all you did was hurt me.

Now I'm crying inside my heart is broken, baby please come back to me please come back to me.

Oh baby please come back to me?.

2001

Sealed with a kiss

Stamped with a heart

Promise me never to depart.

2001

Noticeably

Intriguing

Charmer who

Opts for

Lively

Emotion

2001

Thoughtfully

Inquisitive

Friend who

Fantasizes

2001

Naturally

Interesting

Character who

Has

Original

Loyalty and

Allures

Sensitively

12/22/01

My heart beats so fast

My love is in the past

But now I want you back

Because I miss so

The days go by so very slowly

And I am so very lonely

So please come back before I cry or else I will die.

12/24/01

**Stars**

Every now and then I look up toward's the sky.

And there I see heaven's eclipse of stars.

Each sparkle brings me to tears

For I am missing you too much to bear.

Constantly I think of you,

And all the things I still crave to say,

Remembering our jokes and amusement,

The yearning friendship I long to replay.

Yet, fate has broken us apart,

Both of us lost up in the stars. Somewhere far.

I can only hope for your universal happiness, in a place where pain and suffering is

in absence.

In the night sky I see you, dreaming

The paragon of brilliance above all others.

And you my most divine and brilliant star,

The one I so cherish with dedication.

You are worth more than the universe, more then the crimson sunset painted over

the skies.

Your humorous manners charmed the night, could their be another delight?

You will always shine

Through darkness

Through misery

Our friendship was a beautiful melody, a chance in a lifetime that I will always

remember.

Through we may never see each other again,

There will always be a special place for you,

Always inside my heart.

01/04/02

In your eyes I see my soul,

Together forever bond with gold.

Love has entered in my heart,

I knew it with you from the start,

Never to leave you, but to grow old together,

You are my life,

You are my love,

You are my friend,

Together till the end.

01/09/02

To trust is to know, to know is to go

Into my heart or into my mind

You always seem to have the time

To listen to me o'how could it be

Did I finally find my special boo?

Am I meant to be with you?

All I know is how I feel

The question is, is it real?

Like or love, just don't know boo

All I know is I want to take care of you

For a little or alot, so please just know you will not be forgot.

01/10/02

**Tomorrow**

You are my future to hell with my past

There is no telling how long we will last

So we live day to day with the promise of tomorrow

But the truth is tomorrow may not come

So we live moment to moment with the promise of love

But the truth is love is just a word and it can't feel

The way I feel when I'm with you

So live with me day to day, moment to moment, second to second, hour to hour,

With the promise of being together!

01/14/02

**Dreams**

The light of day has vanished slowly

My mind is full of dreams and pride lying in my bed so lonely

Can't stop my thinking of your bedside

Can't sleep because my thoughts are with you

Wishing I could hold you tight

And kiss you with so much passion

My dreams are with you every night

When I wake up in the morning

I've got the feeling you are near

I turn my head not even wondering

Realizing you aren't here

It's true that I can't sleep all night

Can't have you near me, holding you tight but its important and its right

To have my own dreams which shine so bright

And maybe sometimes dreams come true maybe someday I'll be with you....

03/04/02

**The Hill**

There it stood, gravely chill, a threatening hill,

The eve was calm, nary a sound, stars shimmering bright as the moon shone down,

From nowhere they came, robes black as pitch, some called them sorcerers, some

called them witch,

The two came alone, to lay to rest the question of whose art was the absolute

strongest,

Winds began to gust, black clouds began to roll, the air flickered with sparks, as the

dark powers flowed,

Hands thrust skyward, lightning flashed, thunder roared, as the two magic's clashed,

When it was finished, the moon shone again, an eerie white glow, upon their

blackened skin,

Soundlessly he came, riding a great beast, from below he came forth, to claim the

newly deceased,

Silently grinning, clutching two arrant souls, away he strode, to that abyssal hole,

Quiet it stands, deathly still, a desolate place, a burning hill.

03/04/02

**Voices**

They came to me, late at night, during the day,

When things weren't right, when shit went astray,

The screams, oh god, the screams,

Always do I hear it, always do I hear them,

They scream, they bellow, they shout you are worthless, you are nothing, you must

kill yourself.

Screaming for me to close up, raving that no one will ever help,

Stone your heart they yell, close yourself up.

The voices come to me late at night, and during the day,

But now all they say is, help him...for he is alot like me.

03/04/02

**Until Now**

And as I sit and watch you smile, my heart aches to hold you,for an eternity have I waited, longing to touch your sweet lips, praying our love would be strong and true, as I think back to the first time I saw you.

How I pained to take you, to make love to you through the entire night, I wished, I hoped, I dreamed, I fantasized, I imagined, I pondered, I wondered, I thought, I realized, I cried, I knew you could never be mine, I thought to myself it was just a lie, no matter how badly I wanted, no matter how much I tried, because light seldom shines upon my path, seldom allows me to see, rarely am I allowed to roam down the road where my heart may run free.

Always there is a price, tugging at my luck, always there is a string, fortune, destiny, fate never bringing me anything.

Often I have asked the eternal question, Why me? Why me?Never an answer, only pain, only sacrifice, only enmity,Until now.

03/04/02

**Rains**

Sitting, must times, alone and empty, thinking more than should be thought, this is when the rains come, the masque of content, I've learned to fit well, the ensemble of joy, I've paid to accompany me, the countless hordes ask, I say fine.

The blood-ties assaults relentless, I show no sorrow, I wake, I breath, I speak, I move, I function, and I pretend, and each day wanders meaninglessly, as does my life, sometimes, I forget, if only for a moment, but memories always return in a wash of pain, drowning me,choking my return, drenching the light that used to be deep inside my heart.

And the days pass, lingering sorrow, missing insanity, every now and then, a song, a thought, an expression, takes me to where I fight to leave, and that's when the rains come.

04/28/02

**A Broken Heart**

I shake the thought of you out of my mind. I don't know what's happening was this love so blind?

Why do I still dream of you? Why do I still wish you were here? Why do I still long to see you? Why do I still wish for your arms to be around me?

I'm infatuated with you. But I want that feeling to end. I know you don't feel the same I just want my heart to mend.

I hide all these feelings from you keep them locked inside. I ask my friends for their help at least I have them to confide.

I think I'm succeeding, I think this feeling is dying, I think this is working, I think my heart is crying.

At least I had the guts to say how I felt about you. I wished you felt the same, that you cared for me too.

I guess all I can do now is just let go. Maybe this feeling isn't real, but I'll just let things flow.

I thought you felt the same I was so naive. I actually thought you cared. That's what I can't believe.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think of you, my heart is empty right now, I just want to make it through another day with out you.

I don't care, I don't feel, get on with your life, just forget about me, so I can forget about you.

06/24/02

**Wishing**

I sit here day and night wishing with all my might. That one day you will see how much you mean to me. You're like an angel sent from above. All I want is for you to trust me with your love. I don't see you everyday but you're in my heart anyway. You're gentle, kind, and sweet. And I'm praying the next day we meet, you'll fall in love with me. And then you'll finally see what I've been feeling all this time. Wishing you were here and wishing you were mine.

06/27/02

**Don't tell Me**

Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere.

For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear.

Fear to be loved, fear to love again, it can cause my fragile heart to break, tear

and bend.

Think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise.

So, when I put all of my trust deep within you,

Please don't tell me you love me, unless you truly do.

08/25/02

**Betrayal**

I thought you'd always be with me. Always by my side then you betrayed me, in

more ways then one, you left me to face this cruel world alone. Set adrift in a sea of

night, my tears fall freely, my face an open book showing all the pain you've caused.

First you lie, then cheat, then deceive, then lie again, then cheat again, then deceive

again. When will this circle of pain end?

I can tell your hurting but what do you hide? I know there's something deep down

inside. I can see you in pain and I feel it to just always remember I'm here for you. If

there is someway I can help tell me now, I'll try and make it better but I'm not sure

how. The problems you have must be solved on your own, but with me by your side

you aren't in this alone.

09/04/02

**My Everything**

A love so strong could never be so real, but it is for me and no one knows just exactly what I feel. I wake up each morning with a smile on my face, knowing yet another day I can feel his embrace. I think his best qualities are his soul and heart, in my eyes our love is endless and we will never part. Everything I ever wished of you give to me, never ending love, a completed heart, a dream that?s real for everyone to see. Just being in your arms I have somewhere to go, when times are bad that is the only place I know. You are my soul mate you are my everything for eternity.

09/04/02

**All I Need**

Because you're you

I love you so

With every breath

I hope you know

You're all I need

With every day

With all my heart

With all I say

Your loving touch

Sweeps me away

It's all I need

I'll never stray

This love so strong

This love so true

Its all I need

Its all for you

This love I have

It came to me

On wings of angels

It rescued me

It was the light

That chased the dark

It brightened up

My lonely heart

With all I say

And with all I do

I will be there

Cause I love you.

09/05/02

**You**

My life's been filled with ups and downs. I have often wondered if I wear more frowns, it seems that pain only comes, my way, only negative words I have to say.

Until that day that I was made whole, you looked to the depth of my soul, I had set aside those feelings for years, for in that time I was filled with fear.

I thought there could never be away, that you would love me so and never sway, I assumed I would never be your choice, I'd never hear I love you from your voice.

I still don't know if I have your heart, but above the rest you stand apart, even though my standards are now high, you've met them and over qualify.

There are some differences between us two, But they're nothing that we can't get through, with true love you must stand firm and tall, never letting others make you fall.

I can't imagine you not in my life, I'd be filled with so much pain and strife, my heart would break at the thought of you, and because of this I know not what to do.

I want you more as the days pass by, to hold you close and look deep in your eyes, to hold your hand and kiss your lips, and to stroke your face with my finger tips.

So with this I've come with my heart on my sleeve, hoping you won't turn around and leave, I ask for just one simple chance, at giving you a life full of love and romance.

11/04/02

You wish for me

You want to hold me close

You say I slipped away when it was you who let go.

You say you love me and you know I love you.

But the funny thing is I don't want you.

You've hurt me, you've made me cry, you've broken my heart and tore out my insides.

So this is goodbye. The beginning of the end?

11/05/02

You say you want me.

You say you want to hold me close.

And for the longest time I wanted this the most.

But you hurt me so bad that I no longer want you.

I want the pain to go away and my life to be true.

And the only way I know how is to say good bye.

Say I'll always be here, and I'll always love you.

But please go away for staying makes my heartache.

And the longer this lasts the closer I am to death.

11/27/02

***Why?***

Why her and not me?

What's she got that I don't?

What could she possibly give you that I can't?

I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul, and I wish to god that I could let you go.

I want you back, maybe then this pain will end.

If you don't want me then you have to say so,

I see you and each day I see hope and its that hope that I see everyday, that?s

driving me insane.

So if you don't want me you have to say so, then I?ll go away and maybe then I can

be happy.

But then again how could I ever be happy without you?

12/13/02

***I wish***

I wish I may

I wish I might,

Have this wish

I wish tonight.

I want you back

I miss you so,

Please come back

And never let go.

I miss you. I want you.

Why'd you let go?

12/16/02

**Roses**

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Fuck off baby

Because I don't love you.

You've hurt me

You've made me cry

You've made me feel like I wanna die

Well now its your turn to see the pain you've inflected

What goes out comes back threefold

So say goodbye to love and goodbye to life because with out me your nothing and with out you

I'm ending my life.

01/11/03

There's a million guys in the world,

But only one who has my heart!

Not that it matters because he's torn it apart.

01/20/03

Why is it that I love you so much and I tell you this at least every day.

But you'd rather be with someone else

Someone whose hurt you more then once?

And who will hurt you again?

03/06/03

**Realization**

I've realized that it doesn't matter how much I love you.

You have to love me in return.

And I've come to realize

That I don't think you ever did.

03/10/03

**Nightmare**

I've heard some lovely rumors,

And I believe them to be true.

Heard your having sex again,

Very big mistake.

I hope you are enjoying yourself

Because you've done the worst thing you could possibly ever do

You've brought her back

The one you should fear

You thought I was a cold hearted bitch before

We'll hunny you ain't seen nothing yet

For you see I had a heart then

But hearing about what you've done

Tore what was left of my heart in two

And brought about your worst nightmare

Welcome to hell on Earth baby

And Witch is the ruling Queen.

03/11/03

**If**

If you love something,

Let it go.

If it comes back,

It was meant to be, and don't ever let go.

03/17/03

Their was a time in my life when I was truly happy.

I was happy when I was with you.

At our 5 month you said something to me or rather you sang it to me....

Do you remember?

It was a song that I came to love...I hope you do remember.

I remember so much these days.

I remember our song, a message that you alone know.

I remember the times together that we shared,

I remember the good times, we had so many.

But most of all I remember how much I love you

And how no matter what I will be here and I will wait for you.

I meant what I said you are my soul and my everything.

You are my soul mate.

And you never have to feel alone again because I am always here for you.

03/17/03

**Our Song**

Wish You Were Here Lyrics by Pink Floyd

So, so you think you can tell

Heaven from Hell,

Blue sky's from pain.

Can you tell a green field

From a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade

Your hero's for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

And did you exchange

A walk on part in the war

For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls

Swimming in a fish bowl,

Year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found?

The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

03/24/03

You've changed so much this past month,

Wondering who the hell you are.

Where's the man I fell in Love with?

I don't see him at all.

Guess you've finally moved on and you don't need me anymore,

So I'm going away,

Have a nice life,

You don't need me anymore.

03/24/03

Love is something that never dies,

It lasts a life time.

But a love like ours,

One that goes beyond this life,

Well it happens once in a million.

I'll wait for you always,

And someday I will find you again.

No matter how my lives I have to live to do it.

03/27/03

I try so hard to get over you,

But every day I look at her

And who do I see?

I see you.

You've moved on

So why can't I?

I can't move on because I really do love you.

Everything I ever said to you was true.

But you didn't care.

So now alone I hold on to her.

Your child. Our child. My child.

She's herself but she's also you.

So in away its like you never left.

And I can still have you....

03/28/03

Loving someone,

Who doesn't love you back,

Is like reaching for a star.

You know you'll never make it

But you just have to keep trying.

03/28/03

I'm not supposed to love you,

I'm not supposed to care

I'm not supposed to live my life,

Wishing you were there.

I'm not supposed to wonder where you are

Or what you do,

I'm sorry I just can't help myself,

I fell in love with you.

03/28/03

What do you do

When the only person

Who can make you stop crying

Is the person who made you cry?

03/30/03

They say its a phase,

And I wish it were true.

But I know in my heart,

That I've lost you.

So I wish you much luck

And happiness to

But I can't go away

Because I wanna hold one to you.

03/30/03

I love you so much

That its killing me.

Why the fuck does it have to be this way?

Why should you get to be happy and in love?

When I feel like I'm dieing.

Why the fuck does this have to hurt so bad?

Why the fuck do hold on?

Why do I put myself threw this pain?

I do it because I have this hope,

That it is all just a phase

And that some day you will come back to me.

Someday......

04/01/03

I want you back

I miss you so

Why the fuck

Did you let go?

I need you now

More then anything

If I can't have you as my baby

Then at least let me have you as my friend.

04/07/03

**That Song**

Back At One Lyrics by Brian McKnight

Its undeniable...that we should be together...

Its unbelievable how I used to say that I found in

her...

The places you need to know, if you don't know just how

I feel,

Then let me show you now that I'm for real...

If all things in time, time will reveal...

Yeah...

One...your like a dream come true...

Two... just wanna be with you...

Three... girl its plain to see...that your the only one

for me...

Four...repeat steps one to three...

Five... make you fall in love with me...

If ever I believe our work is done....then I start Back

at One.(yeah)

So Incredible...the way things work themselves out...

And all emotional, once you know that its all about

babe...

And undesirable...for us to be apart...

Never would of made it very far...

Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart

Cause...

One...your like a dream come true

Two... just wanna be with you

Three... girl its plain to see..that your the only one

for me

Four...repeat steps one to three

Five... make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe our work is done....then I start Back

at One......

Say farewell to the dark night...I see the coming of

the sun...

I feel like a little child..whose life has just begun...

You came and reached into the light,

Into this lonely heart of mine...

You threw out the life line...just in the Nick of

Tiimmmeeee.....

One...your like a dream come true

Two... just wanna be with you

Three... girl its plain to see..that your the only one

for me..girl and...

Four...repeat steps one to three

Five... make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe our work is done....then I start Back

at One.

05/04/03

Did you ever fall in love with someone,

But know they didn't care?

Did you ever feel like crying,

But know you'd get nowhere?

Did you ever look into their eyes,

And say a little prayer?

Did you ever look into their hearts,

And wish that you were there?

Did you ever see them walk away,

You see them turn and go,

And whisper God I Love You,

But never let them know?

You'll cry out in misery and almost go insane.

'Cause there's nothing in this world,

That causes so much pain.

If I could choose between love or death,

I think I'd rather die,

Cause love is great ,

Yet hurts so much.

And the price to pay is high.

So when I say don't fall in love,

You'll be hurt before its through.

Believe me 'cause I fell in love with you.

05/05/03

**Person**

I look in the mirror and I see,

A person who never stops crying

A person that is not me

A person who lost it

A person who is insane

A person that worries all day and night

A person who is scared

A person in fright

A person I don't like

A person I don't want to be

A person who knows?

You will never love me.

05/07/03

I don't know if you want me

Or if you even care,

But I love you

And I want you back!

How could you not care?

I'm sorry that I hurt you

I'm sorry that you cried

But I'm hurting

And I'm crying too

Ever since that day I left you.

So lets try again

We'll make it right

We'll be a family

We'll be real tight.

I love you

I miss you

All I wanna do is kiss you

And hold you tight.

05/15/03

**Again**

People said these feelings can't be true.

But when I look into your eyes I see the love I have for you.

I want to try again

I want to make things right.

I want to be a family

I want you in my life.

Come back to me know

Make this loneliness go away.

I love you now and forever

I love you more each day.

Please lets try again?.

05/15/03

I wish that I could hold you

I wish that you were here

I want you back

I'm missing you too much to bear.

Come back to me

And be my boo

Let me hold on to you.

Please come back

Lets try again.

I want you for my lover but most of all I want you for my man.

07/18/03

          Tell me that you want me

          Tell me that you need me

          Tell me that you love me

          And you'll always be here.

          Can you tell me these things?

          Can you make me these promises?

          Can you always be true?

          Tell me you love me,

          Because I love you.

09/11/03

**Torn**

          Torn between a choice of want.

          Torn between a choice of need.

          Torn between me wanting you and you wanting me.

          My heart is torn, my life is over.

          Mend my heart and make my life worth living.

          End this broken torn feeling and . . .

          Forget it happiness will never come for me.

09/15/03

**Wonder**

Did you ever wonder where this is leading?

Where this is going?

Or what it will bring?

I wonder this each day that goes by.

And I'm wondering now if you know the answer.

I wanna wait until your ready,

But I'm so happy when I'm with you.

I'm trying not to push, but i wanna know now.

Maybe you can shed some light on what were doing.

Give me a call

And maybe between the two of us

We can figure it out

And maybe I'll stop wondering.....

2004

**Ramblings**

Lying in bed with his arm on my head just thinking of you.

Wondering where you are and what you been up to.

Thinking how you been and wondering how you feel.

Knowing, that I've been missing you.

Trying to stop but I can't help myself.

Wondering who you’re with and what you have been up to, and thinking maybe you miss me too.

Trying to get help, hoping it'll stop, want it to end, want the pain to go away.

Make it stop!!!

Lying in bed with his arm on my head trying to make it all end!!!

 

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